this is what people don’t see. the whiplash between euphoria and despair. the high that feels like winning the lottery,, until it doesn’t being neurodivergent with bpd means my brain doesn’t come with a pause button. throw in chronic illness and it’s like my body and mind are at war, constantly. the cycle is loud. it’s exhausting. sometimes it feels like i’m drowning in emotions that contradict themselves. but i’m learning to ride the waves instead of letting them take me under. healing isn’t li